Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Last night I spent 4 hours in the emergency room...my spotting turned into bleeding. They collected blood, did an ultrasound and a pelvic. And now I still don't know what's going on. According to the radiologist, they couldn't see anything in my uterus that would indicate a baby...but it could be too early to see anything clearly. They couldn't see anything growing in my tubes but again, it could be too early and the baby too small. The two positives (?) to the visit were that my cervix is still closed, which would indicate that there hasn't been a miscarriage, and my hCG levels were still high, indicating I am still pregnant. But where is the baby?

I have an appointment today at 3pm with my OB. He wants to see me today to check my hCG levels again and I'm assuming we'll do a repeat ultrasound. This is all so crazy to me...I just went to the doctor on Monday and everything was fine. About 36 hours later, I was in the ER. And as much as I believe that God has a plan for all of us, and that everything happens according to His plan, I want so much for this baby to be okay.

I just looked over my discharge papers from the hospital again this morning. They sent me home with three different sets of instructions: one for pregnancy, one for miscarriage, and one for an ectopic pregnancy. I can't stand not knowing what's going on! I know I'll probably know more this afternoon but the waiting is causing me to feel crazy.

Teagan Riley Clark